L a s t S u m m e r;

Friday, June 11, 2010

I never imagine this is how my life will turn out to be...no matter how much I Wana hav sisters, I still love my brothers n it feel like I hav lost them. In actual truth I miss all of us when we were young..when we fought, when we gang up againSt each(usually against me la!) haiz this emotions r too much to handle..

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Sunday, October 11, 2009

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Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Do I look like Kate Hudson??? hahaha ~ Kate Hudson's butt??? haaa

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Sunday, July 26, 2009

Today is the DTTM day and fake it day. Pretend that it doesnt matter to me and I am going through my life in my everyday routine. Seems to lost count of how many times I have reached for my hp to send my daily sms...but the same thing I lost count of how many times I stop myself. Haahaa...fart its been quite awhile since u are in a state where you feel that you are on the verge of insanity.

This feeling is all too familiar. Funny, I dont blame him for all this feeling if its really true watever he told me last night...but I think he need some space, invading will just make him drift away.

Please give me a chance for happiness...thats all I ask for my birthday...

The Prayer of A Lost Soul

xx signed off at 7/26/2009 09:31:00 PM

Saturday, July 25, 2009

I must be real bored as I am starting to blog again.Hahaha. 2more days before I turn 23. Hmmmm...can I have happiness as a birthday present?? =) guess I just have to be patience enuf and wait for it to come to me.

Neway I am sitting at the starbuck somewhere near cuppage, accompany reha while she study for her econ paper (damn! I really hav nothing better to do!, think got to start my assisgnment after this)...and..dun noe y suddently I start thinking of Mr Kwa..haha..he is a real joy, very entertaining and a distraction tat I need in my troubled life..=) n he is busy lately so guess thats y im bored *sign..

*Fart start humming to herself..jurassic park theme song <3 =)

I have been surfing friendster again lately, thanks to Mr Kwa who added me in friendster. I came across the arab girl's friendster and yea due to having nothing better to do...been reading her testimonial. Wonder y she is not contented with wat she had....ok i dun want to misplace my judgement..it goes against my principle

And fart, arent you too old to still build castle in the air. haiz =) never really learn your lesson do you. Please remember what that guy who shall not be named taught you about feeling too much. Still,...yet..but...I still find him very refreshing =). Bestie is worried that I will get hurt again =(....babe, I will take my chance...told you before whatever that doesnt kill me, makes me stronger. Stop giving me all the creepy motherly feeling coz u suppose to me my bestie only yup.

And oh I got to take leave on the 6th of August coz its bestie outdoor photo shoot..got to run ard with her..haha...reminds me of the movie 27 dresses.

Okay looking forward to meet my darlings tomorrow, funny for once, I kinda miss Vanessa! hahaha

xx signed off at 7/25/2009 03:00:00 PM

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Its been a long time since I view my own blog. Been keeping myself busy, tired to the bones so that all I can think at night is sleep. However it seems like I have very little sleep too. Wonder why

Perth was fun. Really fun!..met fun people there but dont know whether we stayed long enough to make an everlasting friendship with them.

Work life has been good to me...has been smacking my boss right in his face lately and I diligently do all my work everyday so that my hr can stop picking on me. What more can I ask for...but it seems like something is missing...

My dear 3rd brother gona have a baby in a few months and I am so happy with the gender...hahaha! A true happiness but at the same time I am feeling jealous...wonder why..

Lastly, we finally break up and its been 3 months close to 4months now...probably i didnt try hard enough to make things work.

To B, I am really sorry that I cant seem to love you the way you want me to...everything that happened, slowly took your trust away from me. I ever admit to you that I couldnt get over him who shall not be name but all my 3years with you, never cross my mind that I want to cheat on you and even till now if I can turn back I will do the same thing. I am not a perfect girl, my life is not like any other girls but I tried my best when it comes to you and I tried to fulfill your request. Think we finally got tired...probably of each other. You ever told me that this r/s is taking a toll on you so this is the last thing that I can do for you n for me...Hope things gets better for you and life for me has to move on.

I am turning 23 in a few days and for the 4th year I am celebrating without my dad. *Sniff..haaa..getting emotional..July...the same month that my dad passed away. Dont know whether I should be sad or happy in July but got to admit the 1st 2years I hated July. It still feels like it was just yesterday that we lose him...

=)

xx signed off at 7/22/2009 11:14:00 PM

Sunday, May 10, 2009

I never felt so lonely in my life before until lately..with all my worklife trouble, my lovelife trouble n my home trouble. Never before I feel like I dont wanna go home...It feels better to be outside...infact anywhere except for home. What troubled most, is expenses, my monthly salary is not enough to cover the monthly expenses. It feel like brothers putting more burden on me than helping me...im to the point where I hate their guts and Im blaming my mum for what they are doing to me.

Please let the month of June comes fast so that I can run from all this troubles.

BF has been finding fault ever since the aermy incident...every small little thing im in the wrong. Im standing in a room with four walls that are caving in on me.

Why cant I be happy? Why cant I be like any other normal 23 yrs old...no worries, no responsiblities....

Why do he have to leave so fast...no one to protect me now..

xx signed off at 5/10/2009 08:14:00 PM